This is a powerful poem written by a friend of mine Santia Jackson who had many obstacles before being able to play professional basketball overseas. I am currently finishing up designing her website which has video, photos and her total profile. Please if you ever thought about giving up on your dreams, read this poem. There will be an audio added soon.
Life is so complicated
And at times I hate it
In pursuit of my dreams
I idolized material things
That now seem overrated.
As a kid I wanted the big house and the fancy car
I even dreamed about being a superstar
In the public eye like, Beyonce, Oprah, and Maya Angelou
The people would love me
because they loved the way I flow.
I prayed from time to time
I didn’t want a new start
I just wanted God to give me what’s in my heart
Can’t he read my mind?
It’s like God never listened to me.
I have been struggling since before,
mom and dad I was one of four
we escaped from poverty
and made it to the middle class
but life was still hard for me
that’s why I hate to talk about my past.
I remember it like it was yesterday, the decision I made,
my mom always wanted us to attend university
she put us first you see
that’s why I stayed.
Freshmen year I was ready to put it down
Career highs, world renown
Academic –All American
Good Grades-Great Samaritan
but you see it all changed,
I never really played
and you got to get in the game
for people to remember your name.
As the year past, I was upset but didn’t sweat it,
since there was nothing I can do to change the past, I said just forget it.
I put all my energy into the game
when I was not practicing I would daydream
about how this year the fans would say my name
and although the seasons changed,
my situation did not,
I was still on the bench praying for my coach to give me a shot.
Another year passed
I couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t playing
I wanted to leave
In the Bible it said first shall finish last,
And last was me.
It hurt it was painful because I knew I was good
even my own teammates didn’t understand it
I asked God why can’t I play dammit?
I remained positive but I spent many nights with tears.
I cried out to God, for four freakin years.
Was to be
A professional athlete
And my reality
Made it hard to see.
My mom said pray
it will happen God’s way,
But I prayed for four years
And no change came
How can I be a professional, when I can’t even get in the game?
And finally, I was getting ready to graduate
I was real sad
four years had passed
and I knew now it was too late.
Who would pay me
to play professionally,
I didn’t even have a tape.
After my last college game,
I remember my mom telling me if you have the will, God will make a way.
I only played 7 minutes that night
the last game of the season
for some reason
I just didn’t give up the fight.
even when my reality
that it was hopeless.
And people were asking me, what are you going to do now, you got to get a real job, but I didn’t listen to them because I didn’t want to lose focus.
You see, the devil is a liar, and I know this.
And one night I was talking to a friend
She told me her old coach in Russia coaches professionally
he is looking for a 3, 4, who can run the floor
before she could even finish, I said, shoot, that’s me.
God gave me a contact
a month later I had a contract.
I went from being on the bench
to playing with and against
Olympians and WNBA players.
Why, because I stayed focus on God and didn’t listen to these haters.
So I stand before you today,
knowing that God can and will make a way.
This testimony is very special to me
Because if it was not for God I wouldn’t be playing professionally.
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That made me cry man my story isnt complete yet i believe in god to and i no he knows that my heart my life is in basketball things was different for me i messed up in school going throw the whole gay thing but i i no were my heart is and i want give up i want to play ball and i will your story man it touched me i gotta start some were but i dont no were to start i pray to i pray everyday i even sometimes question god but i no thats not right i want give up! Im your biggest fan love Bre Keep up the GOOD WORK!
I love your testimony Santia. I don’t play basketball, but my boyfriend does. He played through college always in the top 5 and he thought he was diffidently going pro. after college. So when he was offered by pro. teams to drop out of school and go pro he took his father’s advice and stayed in school. After graduating he thought things would be easy, but he was so wrong. He went to probably dozen bad tryouts where he would make the team, but it would end up being a fraud. Now he is home, in the Bahamas, and the US embassy is not letting him get back to America for more tryouts without a letter or a call of recommendation. And like u he prays day and night and has been praying, but no one knows what to do. He tells me, and I can see it hurts him, that he is giving up. But I think there is still hope for someone of his talent, once he stays in faith. If u or anyone has any suggestions or ideas on what he can do email me email@example.com
i have dreams like u maybe u can help
Santia. I really enjoyed reading your testimony…..
I love basketballl……I’m surely not pro….
but I would love to someday…….
It’s similar to somewat i’ve been throught……….
I appreciate you for giving some of your time to write this…….
you made me realize that….with god anything is possible…..
just hang on in there…..and god will make a way…….
again thanks for your time…..
your’s truly, *Sayuri*
Beautiful. Gave me chills. Thank you.
i like the poems’
the poem was awesome thanx for writin it.i luv it soooooo much. more than happy to know God is in your heart, ’cause he’ll be there every step of the way.pls make more for me to read, and remember…with God anything is possible, as you heard. i believe in God 2. he completely changed my life.i pray everyday also.
(P.S. GOD RULEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
That was very motivating. I really needed to read that. I would really like to know how things turned out. I want to play but I don’t have any connects but any way I just like the company of fellow athletes. It makes me feel close to the game when I’m not able to play so I would be delighted if you just respond to this message, not to help me or anything I just need a response for motivation. You can just say what’s up and that you received this message. That would be enough for me.
email – firstname.lastname@example.org
This poem masd me cry… I kno exactly how u felt… I had no choice but to praise Jesus… thank u JESUS
Santia wrote a great poem.
Now then, do you have the number for the Russian girl? Just askin…..